Worry is like a rocking chair...

...it gives you something to do but it doesn't get you anywhere.

As I listen to my daughter chatter away (instead of NAP), I'm reminded how AWESOME it is to be a teacher and have the summer free (well... sort of... my "mentor job" will be starting up soon and there are a few summer projects here and there).  What a huge blessing!  There are still tons of things up in the air right now, but I'm just trying to enjoy now and not worry about later.  God has a plan for us, we just have to be patient.  JJ and I feel so blessed that he has been accepted to Medical School... BUT... we'd just like to know exactly what's happening with what where!  Basically, we just want to be in at UND and *most* of my worries will be solved.  Of course that does mean that MVJ will be in daycare, but that's basically the only downside (besides of course the adventure of moving to another state and experiencing life in new and different ways). 

JJ has been busy doing all the necessary requirements for Med. School: background check, credit check, updated shots, physical, ETC!  We've even checked into a few apartments down south.  Let me tell you, moving from our drab, outdated apartment will be a welcome relief.  The apartment complexes there are super nice - with exercise facilities, walking paths (one has a "wilderness trail"... hmmm...), storage, garage, guest rooms, ETC. for about the same we'd be paying here.  Woot! 

But.  We'd really rather me stay home if we moved.  It would take me a long time to feel comfortable bring MVJ somewhere I didn't know well.  Also, what kind of schools would I be working in?  I'm used to the "big deal" problems here.  There could be major big deal problems there.  Ones that would make me feel scared and that's just not the place I'd choose to be working. 

It is just so tough.  We're wondering how we'll make ends meet and in a little over four years JJ will be starting to make money again (not much, but money again is money again!).  But what do we do in between?  I also don't want MVJ to be five years older than her next sibling!  That just won't work for me or our "kiddo" plan.

It brings me back to that first paragraph.  God has a plan for us.  God has a plan for us.  God has a plan for us.  Help me trust in that plan!!   

Matthew 6:
 ²⁵"Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? ²⁶Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? ²⁷Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life^[b]?
 ²⁸"And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. ²⁹Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. ³⁰If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? ³¹So do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' ³²For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. ³³But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. ³⁴Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.